Saturday

I have been here since 11am this morning. At first she was very anxious. The doctors changed her medicine from "Delores" to morphine. They said that would make her more coherent. Well apparently its not as strong. The nurse said that she got 0.5 ML compared to the 2ML she usually gets. After speaking with the doctor her morphine was raised and she got some more. Her pain was gone, but she was increasing anxious.
Finally the nurse gave her Avitan. Much less than the last time. It did the trick.
She fell asleep at 6pm and is still out. Almost 4 hrs now.
I asked the nurse about all this anxiety. She explained that even without a serious illness being in the hospital for such a long time tends to make people disoriented.Faces of nurses and doctors keep changing as does medicines and routines.Its like sensory deprivation. That brings on a strong feeling of losing control and becoming nervous and scared.She's been drinking for me, but no food. She told me she was hungry a few times, but when I try to give her something she says she can't. The nurse thinks that's the medicine. As long as she feels hungry food will come. She did have 2 spoons of pudding to take her medicine. She also let me and the nurse know that she was on to us and very aware that chopped up pills were in there. In her words "You can't pull one over on me". Jeff has been a great comfort for her today. She settles down much faster for him than for me today. As long as she trusts someone ANYONE we're good. Today its Jeff. She lies down for him and drinks for him, and tells him she's hungry so maybe at some point she'll eat for him. We'll see what the overnight brings. I am so proud of Danielle doing this everynight. I was so stressed out when I got here at first. She has been great in this situation.